Sep 26, 2006

Tamang pagka-miss

May mga tao na di pa umaalis at nandyan pa lagi sa tabi mo pero miss na miss mo na
...siguro dahil alam mo ilang araw na lang at mawawalay na sya sa iyo

May mga tao na dapat sana namimiss mo pero di bale na lng
...siguro dahil nasaktan ka masyado, di mo inaasahan, di mo maintindihan pa'no kayo naging ganito ngayon

May mga tao na di mo alam na namiss mo kung di pa kayo ulit nagkasama
...siguro madami kang pinagwalang bahala sa relasyon ninyo noon

May mga tao na pwede mo na lng ma-miss
...dahil alam mong sa isip at panaginip mo na lang sila makakasama

Pero ano pa man klase ng pagka-miss alam mo at alam ko na ang mga nakakamiss lang ay ang mga tao na importante sa atin. Kasama mo man sya ngayon. Inasahan mong kasama hanggang ngayon. Di mo na madalas makasama. Di na muling makakasama.

Sana lang importante ka din sa kanila. Sana lang ganun din ang nararamdaman nila.

Ngunit higit sa lahat hindi man kayo pareho ng naiisip o nararamdaman...sana lng alam nila na ganyan sila kahalaga.

Sep 13, 2006

Guilt feelings

Have you ever noticed how Filipinos have difficulty saying NO even for their own sake? Not to mention how we feel guilty even if there is nothing to be guilty of after saying NO.

I for one am a victim of not being able to say no. I only realized this recently or rather my Indian classmate in DLSU who's a priest called my attention about it and my other classmates came in to my defense saying it's a gender and cultural thing, it wasn't personal (coz he was starting to get angry that I didn't simply say no to his request and I had to go around explaining it instead). I swear super sama tlga ng loob nya sa akin but he texted me naman the following day to say that he's sorry for the way he reacted blah blah blah. Initially my defense was...okay I forgot what it was because later on that day I realized his point that I should've just clearly said NO. I just had to stress it that it wasn't really personal or anything, it was a natural response that any of us in the group would have said the same thing.

Today, I'm feeling the second one after saying no to a big favor. It involves money kasi and I am prone for trusting people with plenty of money yet suffer in the end. Sobrang suffering umabot pa sa NBI yung isang case ko ng pagtrust...pero di ko lng na-follow through with the court hearings so wala din..gone with the wind din ang drama naming mga victims. Even if I had all the point and the reason in the world to say no why the hell do I feel so bad? Is it my upbringing or is it a cultural phenomenon? I also met several people who have difficulty naman collecting payment from the person who borrowed money, even to some point na sila na yung gipit na gipit nahihiya pa din silang maningil. Nagawa na nila lahat ng pakulo at drama except for approaching the person directly and collect the payment. This is something I'm not guilty of naman kse I rarely have the chance to...hahaha! Either the person disappeared or madami din kami na-victim so kahit anong bitin naming patiwarik sa tao eh wala din. Anyway I like Weng's advise for now the best I could do is pray for that person that he finds other means especially after I turned him down. I guess what makes it more difficult for me is that I know how it feels.

Sep 5, 2006


Out of curiosity I sent an email to the person who posted an opening for Network Administrator in Athens, Greece in my HR egroup. The qualifications fits Ryan very well so I emailed him without Ryan's permission (hehe!last hope to go to Europe dahil di type ni Ryan even if we can afford to daw). The next day he replied asking us to call a number so that's when I told Ryan. It was also mentioned in the email that they will pay $750-800 plus housing. Who knows if the $750 is per day di ba. Ryan called the guy up last night and I was already frowning when I heard him say "Are you sure bio-data po?". I can't hold my laughter anymore when he went on explaining to the other person why it would be beneficial for the employer if he just sends his CV. Yes, that includes detailing the content of a CV.

We were having dinner and the guy texted him an email address where is supposed to send his "bio-data" > nameofperson@somewhere Ryan texted back to make sure (actually to correct tlga) -- "you mean sir". The guy replied "hindi walang .com" Hala!Di na kme nagdalawang isip we're not sending his CV este "bio-data" nga pala.