A Shoe Tragedy

It was my first day of work yesterday. Nothing grand just so-so. I’m still adjusting naturally from the work environment to the way I dress up. Miss a lot of things lalo na the people but I instantly snap out of it everytime I get a text message that I have to do this have to do that before they sign my clearance. Technically they cannot hold me for erasing my emails before I left because I don’t think that’s an accountability unless I was told otherwise. With so many things to do in so little time I wasn’t able squeeze in segregating the personal emails from official ones. Hello!!! Four years?It was literally BULK mail so I just had to go ahead and delete it.

Anyway, at work (this is so embarrassing but I can’t help but talk about it) since I haven’t used my pumps for almost four years had to wear it for the first time again yesterday. I was able to shop for cheap business clothes from none other than the classy Divisoria last week (hahaha!) but I didn’t want to scrimp on my shoes so di ako nakabili. Then I completely forgot to go to the mall to buy some. Here I was clad in new slacks, blouse and so formal and business like yet I noticed some cracks on the top of my old pumps as I walk around the house. Nothing noticeable at first otherwise I would’ve settled for my reliable high-heeled sandals even if it meant violating policies on my first day. The day went on and I kept on moving around the building added to the fact that the only closed shoes I’ve worn in the last four years are rubber shoes and on my wedding day so my feet was screaming to get out! The top of one shoe almost chipped off na..as in natutuklap siya!

I was praying they won’t include me yet on the officer’s meeting that afternoon otherwise everybody would see an officer who can’t even afford a decent pair of shoes. Grabe tlga. Actually I tried to do something about it by going home during lunch I was on my way when I realized that I left my keys in the office. If I go back I’ll be late and though it won’t be counted against me I don’t think that’s proper on your first day of work. Sobra talagang funny how I tried to hide my shoes and not looking at the students as I walk in the corridor. Embarrassing to the nth power but I don’t want to give myself a hard time on such a petty thing. First thing I did when I got off was buy a pair of shoes at Landmark (ayoko nang lumayo!) kahit pa I was hungry already. When I found what I liked di ko na sinuot ulit yung shoes ko noh! But I took it home para ipakita sa family ko…hehe!

Then we met up with our ring supplier to have Ryan’s ring repaired kse it had a crack. They got mine na rin for polishing and they were so sorry for what happened that they took us out for dinner. After that we watched Monster-in-Law which we found very funny…grabe ang saya! Despite my attire, aching feet and horrible shoe tragedy di ko pinalagpas ang Time Zone (Oh yes, spoiled by my hubby). Di nga lang ako nakapaglaro ng basketball because of the shoes. Hehehe…

I'm gone...hopefully not forgetten

For somebody who was about to leave the company the work did not seem to end. Until my last day at work I can't accomplish what I planned to do so. Of course my tonsillitis, colds and cough wasn't really helping me reach my objectives and I simply wanted to leave and be gone (in short nakakatamad na tlga..hehehe).

Ironically I was getting anxious and having a bad case of separation anxiety which I thought I'll never have considering my reason for resigning but that can't be helped if I am surrounded with people who are really really nice. When I think of it, their nice personality and kindness floods over what causes my stress in the office but hey I'm just human and I believe that too much stress will kill me so why wait.

Also being able to talk things out with The B when she came over. At the start of the conversation I was getting disappointed because we were dwelling on the same issue however as it progressed I agreed that it's still important to clean the air and look back with fond memories to share and not the bitterness. I was contemplating on apologizing myself but if I have hurt her in the process then I at least owe her that.

In the last few days I realized that I loved the company and have so many good things to say about it then again bigger credit goes to the wonderful friends I have met there.

I have no regrets. Only gratitude I cannot put into words. I was forced to say my farewell speech and like I was expecting I was mess...crying and all, I thank my bosses who contributed to my growth, to the friends I have gained despite having a position that’s most hated in all companies, to my detractors who gave my work a challenge and pushed me to the limits to reach my potentials. I was overwhelmed with the sincerity of the people everytime they walk up to me and tell me how much they will miss me. That itself was an achievement I could ask for and will inspire me to do well in the next company I’ll be joining.

I may have gone and left good people behind but I will never forget. Hopefully they won't too. =)

LIST OF THINGS...

I Can’t wait to do:

I'm always absent..grabe last week M-W-F ako naka-leave!haha!Marathon job applications and not to mention I'm so lazy to go to work that I'd rather do other things.hehehe. Here goes...

1. Sleep a lot and be lazy at home

2. Watch TV especially hallmark kse naman afternoon magaganda ang shows or if I'll be able to burn tv series from the office now is the time to watch endlessly.

3. Finally choose the pictures for our wedding album (yes..wala pa until now and it's all our fault)

4. Finish my wedding kwento for Matus Jewelry website. Sobrang hiyang hiya na ako kina Alaine & Maye they really deserve plenty of credits for being a good supplier and good friends.

5. Sideline c/o Abie (thanks sis!bawi na ang bonus na mamimiss ko because I resigned before pa marelease)

6. Prepare & plan good dishes everyday nang hindi natataranta

7. Relaxed and not harassed after office ni Ryan para this time he has all the right to be and I'll take care of him.

8. Really really clean the room and organize and transfer all my books and documents from my old room pa. hahaha!

9. Find my passport? haha!as if..........asa pa ako!

10. Oh and I almost forgot!>>dedicate more time for my studies..haha! oo nga pala…sheesh.

pang less than a month things to do ba ito? Hmmm…..baka mawili ako!

Will surely miss:


these made it tough for me to let go of my job (akalain mo meron pala?!hehe!joke!)

1. ang mga friendship (syempre pa!). I give out a "mataray" first impression to everybody and I must say that making them see I'm not was something hard earned. Starting to get sentimental na nga being apart from them. sobrang nice kse tlga ng mga friends ko even from engineering department sila or even yung from Cebu.

2. The staff. We had our ups & downs but i undeniably love them because they have been with me through it all. They may not be my best friends and I would've love to have them open up to me more but nonetheless they will always have a special place in my heart.

3. Gail's crazy antics. This girl definitely cracks me up. She's one hell of a crazy girl that we decided to compile all her bloopers. We just can't document everything because we get so carried away laughing at it. She was my batchmate as in tandem na kme ever since and we have a nickname - they call us sitsiritsit...hehe!long story.

4. Cebu staff. I haven't even seen them in person... pero para ko silang phonepals ever. I will surely miss them, some of them already left but we'll always have a special bond. Relate kme ever sa experiences and even if we are literally phonepals lng they opened up to me more than I thought I deserved to know. Sobrang sad din ako and they just found out a few days ago. Even the new HR Staff there is getting sentimental over me leaving.

5. The updated tv shows in the office. Paano na ang noontime habit ko?Waah!

6. Mang Erning forever. I'm so fond of our company driver despite his stubborness that I personally chose him to drive for us on our wedding day. Of course he was treated as a guest din. Fave ko tlga si Mang Erning. =)

7. Mga super cool-eet na seniors. I never thought there are supervisors and managers who can be so cool and super kulit at the same time at feeling barkada ko sila. Learned a lot from them and I know dito lng matatagpuan na lahat tlga are so easy to relate to.

8. Birthday treats for the whole office. (Need I say more?)

Oh well...guess if I start getting teary eyed missing all of these then I should toughen myself up and look forward to the next company I'll be joining and hopefully it will pave a brighter future for me and our future family. =)